Transplant is being delayed a week. All of Lukes respiratory tests came back negative but Dr. Kohler still wants to wait. The tests don’t include every single possible bacteria or virus and we need him going into this as strong as possible. We 10000000% trust Dr. Kohler so that is what we will do. So, home now in lockdown again for a week. Our BMT nurse said she would schedule us to come back Thursday or Friday this week and that is when we will confirm all the timing and appointments for Luke and I (it is a LOT to coordinate).

I’m tired. I feel like I prepared for an apocalypse. I cooked and cooked and froze meals, cleaned out drawers, washed every piece of clothing, packed and now unpacking. Coordinating Mason and his schedule, people traveling to come and help, and on and on.I had more groceries delivered this last week, you would think I had a dozen sixteen-year-old males I am feeding. I went overboard for sure but it is how I could dealt with all the emotions I’m having going into this. It is the one thing I can control. Now we will reset, redo, and try again. I told Luke on the way home “I’m not cooking tonight!” He said, “I don’t blame you.” He has seen me spin circles upon circles this last week.

We are ready. Now we will be even more ready. I hope Luke’s cold runs its course and if I am to get it, I get it soon.

Buckets of sleep,

Six