I would like 8000 gallons of wine, 50 days of sleep, 220 Xanax, 10,000 units of Botox, a hair cut and color, and 336 massages. Annnndddd maybe a hot Latin lover. Oye.

It’s been a whirlwind. So much has gone on. Good and bad. Lots of growth. Lots of tears. Lots of laughter. Lots of new friends. Lots and lots of perspective. Things can always change, but it looks like I’ll be bustin’ Luke outta here tomorrow! We have passed classes, done trial runs (Independence Day), practiced all sorts of things and what if scenarios. I can even draw his blood for labs. Ha. Never say never. We will be coming back Tuesday, and spending many days ahead at the hospital, but we at least get to sleep at home. Morgan and GG have taken some classes along with me so we all are on the same page. Honestly, Luke has taken charge and is ready. Morgan, Luke, and I have one more slumber party together tonight! I can’t wait to pop my fucking blow up mattress-but it may have been the best purchase ever. Speaking of warriors, our Morgan has been by our side through it all. She is such a blessing. Her sacrifices have been immense, but critical to us all getting through this. She has seen and been through something that no one ever should, especially at 19 years old.

I am extremely excited to sleep in my bed after 45 nights in the hospital but even more thrilled to be bringing our Luke HOME. I get to grab onto my Mas! I have only seen him about 3 hours in the last 45 days. We have a ways to go and we know this is not the end…but so very thankful this phase is over. We did it. We did it. And we couldn’t have done it without our posse. Thank you thank you thank you-from the tips of my toes to the top of my head. I have so much to share about our journey. I will. I promise. There have been so many gifts along this journey of hell, I must share.

Is it possible to love your children too much? Not smothering love. Just so much that your heart breaks into pieces when they have joy or pain? I don’t think so.

Buckets of LOTS,

Suz